rithneykaine:

E: vhy zou you zink youz gna get zeat up at vork?

R: vecause people vringz a friend vut I zont let zem in cauze deyz zont vant to pay $15 for a guezt pazz! lol it havenned three timez alveady today

E: psh zats zey faulttt!

R: zey zo mean!

E: zeeey zes vein’ hayyytaaz

R: zhit! zell me avout zit!

E: LOL!! we izzz so schups

R: i VAS LOL-ing haha cauze i zake longver zo reply! hahahhahaha

E: LOL!! zis iz zoooo cuvhaazyy!

R: zaaamn right! lol and zo zink zat ve are zo againzt not zpelling rightz zhrough zext! hahah

E: hahahahhaha zomggggaaazz! zis iz vreaaakin vaaannnyyy. i hope youz sstill come zomars i vaked ved velvet

woah. this will be the first original post i’ve put on public for more than a year now… anways, here are some of my current random/scrambled thoughts:

• everytime i read a book, my mind escapes whatever problems or dilemmas that irritate me. i somehow put myself in the characters shoes and relate to their life in the book. it takes me out of reality for a moment and my focus turns on their stories.  as satisfying as it is to escape my own problems for awhile, i know that they’re still there. but for that time being, its nice to be able to “run away” from it.  i wish i had more free time and opportunities for recreational reading.

• i don’t understand how you THINK you can know someone soooo well but eventually even they don’t fail to disappoint you. my past has caused me to have some serious trust issues and over the years i’ve learned to have my guard up and TRY not to get attached. its surprising how people are so vulnerable to make the wrong decisions multiple times even when they’re in the right state of mind.  caring for someone and fulfilling selfish needs don’t go hand in hand.  everyone has a past and has been through some sort of emotional pain.  why force someone to go through it all over again?

• as much as it hurts i just can’t fully wrap my head around the fact you still say “no.” what else do you want from me? what else can i do to make you realize that i’m not so-and-so? i honestly think that the harder it is for me to make a breakthrough the more i want it to happen.  i feel like once i get what i want i’ll be satisfied. for how long tho? i have no idea. would i still be interested afterwards? i have no clue… but most likely. i guess i’m going into this situation selfishly without taking into account all that you’ve been through but even then, you don’t realize a good thing you can have. 

• the holidays are officially over. its 2012. i can definitely say that 2011 was a memorable year for me. its been crazy eventful. i’m practically out &about everyday and i’m barely home. i lost some friends but at the same time, i’ve gained amazing ones. and i’m lucky to have the very few that have been there for me year after year despite distance or changes in our lives. i’ve been blessed with so many new opportunities over that last year and it’s made me grow as a person and made me look at things from a different perspective.

• loneliness. one of those “i want a man, but don’t need one” situations. when i know deep down, that being independent gets tiring &i’d be nice to have someone there. it’d be nice to have someone there to talk to about whatever is going on in my confusing head. to have someone to turn to when i’m feeling down or want to share something with. just to have someone i can count on and rely on. taking care of people and making others happy is just my thing. i’d do whatever i can to show that i care. i love to show that weakness doesn’t phase me and that fear isn’t something that affects me. but i guess all that gets bottled up and causes me to have breakdowns. i bring it upon myself, that i know. its just hard to avoid apparently. i’m a girl. i’m sensitive &have emotions. it happens. 

• i love my life i really do. i love everyone in it and i’m just trying to live everyday as it comes. 

alright. that’s that. my poorly written last minute erratic vent is over. 

karleinnarciso:

excuse-my-charisma:

ahahahahahaha & their shorts/sweats<3